The Formidable Peculiarity
Recently, I've been hit with an idea: I've grown up so much, yet I haven't at the same time. I'm officially a senior and I'm soon enough going to hit the big 18; I'm about to be an adult legally. When I look back where I came from - a kid who would cry in a corner during kindergarten - to where I am today, I find myself thinking, "My gosh, I've changed so much."
Growing up as a kid I could be summed up in one word- insecure. I would do everything socially acceptable because, well...I wanted to be accepted. I was trying to be a this "cool kid" thinking that would satisfy me; I wasn't ever myself. For instance, I remember in Middle School I would gossip (horribly I might add) about friends of mine just for the sake of bringing myself up a figurative social ladder. Honestly, what was I thinking?
As life progressed, I moved into High School and the low self-asteem child transitioned into a senior who is the Student Council President? Wait, what? How did this happen? It seems just like yesterday when I was in Biology frsehman year and apprehensive about saying "Hi" to Vanessa. Now, I'm going to Oxford and introducing myself confidently to 80 other kids I do not even know. I just don't understand what happened. When did I change? Or did I ever change?- That's a thought.
posted by Trab at 11:28 PM
3 Comments:
we all change - life takes its toll, usually drastically - time rolls on and we wonder where it went and when it will stop - i wonder where i went too, but i'm really glad i'm gone.
i'll be praying for you, travisio. i love how you love people the way God does.
-sarah
The acorn becomes an oak by means of automatic growth; no commitment is necessary. The kitten similarly becomes a cat on the basis of instinct. Nature and being are identical in creatures like them. But a man or woman becomes fully human only by his or her choices and his or her commitment to them. People attain worth and dignity by the multitude of decisions they make from day by day. These decisions require courage.
Travis, your a great pal, and I know that you are going to make a great lifelong friend!
I agree totally with Porter. :D You love people, m'dear, in a way that no-body else I know does. That's what makes you such a teriffic friend to have. ^^
I wonder sometimes what happened to the cute little girl and her wide-eyed curiosity, because now when I look in the mirror I see (firstly my NOSE, no thanks to you) a rather shy, withdrawn, cynical introvert... It's mildly disturbing, but I suppose that's what I've become. I'm not sorry.
I hope you have a fantastic year, O President. Call me up some time and we'll ramble around reminscing on Oxford.
LOVES
Ashley
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